Where has the time gone?

Wowzers, I started writing a cathartic post because I was feeling really overwhelmed, but I feel better now. Good thing - I forgot to save my draft!

Here's a summary of the last month or two:

Pure bliss. Fiji was incredible. I decided that after one international trip, I probably don't need another this summer! If the price is right, I'll head to NY to volunteer and meet up with some friends. If not, I have big plans to get into the best shape of my life, to possibly learn to scuba, and to hit up as many music teachers as possible to shadow them, learn from them, and work toward becoming my personal best and improving all of the terrible habits I picked up in this first year.

Speaking of those bad habits, I was feeling pretty down about what a shitty, inexperienced, fail of a director I am. Not looking for sympathy, so don't respond with that; it just hit me how many things I did failed or weren't well planned. None of it was intentional, but I guess you live and learn. I was really overwhelmed by it all, but a talk with Chris helped to put it into perspective.

This is the busiest I have ever been in my life. There were four days last quarter where I felt I wasn't doing enough and needed to contribute to the school, the community, and my friends more. I took on as much as possible. I'm DYING now but it will all be over in a month, more or less. I'll definitely be smarter with my time next year. I'm already overloaded as is - no need to be ridiculous about it. I'm sure that even though I'll be more familiar with the routine and my goals, grad school apps will throw a wrench into everything. Gotta start researching UM, IC, and FSU this summer!

Weekends have been amazing, as was my first-ever military function, aside from a JROTC function in HS. I never ever thought I'd be attending a military event, but I'm very glad I did - what a riot! It doesn't hurt that an incredible guy took me, either. ;)

Feeling a lot more satisfied and optimistic than a few days ago. Final stretch. Caffeine. Preparation. Less sleep. Cat pictures. Let's do this!